Breaking the spell

It’s December – the perfect time to reflect and breath in the cold crisp reality….

Today from my backyard

Today is 23⁰F (-4⁰C) in the lovely city in upstate NY where I live.  It is not currently snowing and the sky is bright.  The furnace is on and air inside is on the cool side, but tolerable with some flannel pajamas.  This morning I decided to jump back into my blog and write.  It has been quite a while since my last entry and I have been reflecting on why that is.  I have been studying for an exam in supply chain management.  I am busy raising my kids as well.  The lack of writing hasn’t been due to my busy life.

I forgot myself for a while.  

lost

 

As much as I enjoy great motivators like Tony Robbins, Jack Canfield, and Tim Ferriss – I can also find myself giving in the great disruptors like my own insecurities and the negative people who have all the reasons why it won’t ever happen or gossip about what someone else said or thinks.  I found myself interpreting everything through a negative lens – instead of seeing opportunity and maximizing it I began to see all the signs to reinforce my negativity.  Wallow I did.

Ironically – it was one of the disruptors who snapped me out.  Once again I was listening to an unsolicited complaint from the soothsayer of doom when it hit me.  “I am affiliated with this.  I have been feeding in to the negative BS and the taint of it is on me. ”

I had this realization on Friday and yesterday I let it sink in and today I break the spell.

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Found

So now what?  Well I get back on track of course. I have the laptop that I treated myself to with the back lit key board and I am doing something that I love – writing.  I have been using my commute to listen to Jane Eyre on audio, Charlotte Bronte wrote beautifully and it makes me happy to hear it. I am studying for my exam and feel prepared for it.  I am going to make time for exercise daily, it keeps me energized and happy.  I will look at a situation and see it through my own eyes.

Thank you for reading.

Keep Warm, Read a great book and Stay Feisty!

 

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